Companionship

Today I felt a deep longing for companionship. A longing for a connection with someone beyond the bedroom (but with the bedroom included). It came out of nowhere but I felt it deep within me. It was very real to me. It felt secure and stable but yet I was vulnerable and weak. I felt for a moment as if I were in a locked embrace with someone with firm, strong arms and a gentle heart. It was beautiful. I felt I could trust this companion with my heart, my soul, my body, my mind.

After that moment passed, I was suddenly very sad. I know I have never had such a connection but I long for it still. But is it not a natural way of life.? Will I ever experience such a thing?

I have never felt secure with a man. I am always doubtful and leary, overanalyzing and underestimating of what they have to offer. I have not let go of my independence with anyone. Hmmm....