Unmotivated

Today has been kind of a blur to me. I arrived at work totally unmotivated and my biggest accomplishment to day was to create and address invitations to a business mixer (which will be a useless two hours spent hanging around the branch after hours anyway). When the branch manager said that my main focus today would be to get the invitations out I chuckled to myself...out loud...oops. I thought sarcastically, "Wow, I am so useful!"

Then, I started thinking about life as I always do and I realized something. I haven't been very useful with as much as I think I have. I mean, I dream big and I hope big but what have I really done? Nothing really.

I am at a point in my career where I need a dramatic change but what have I really done about it? What will I do? What steps have I taken to prepare myself for success? What am I good at? What will bring me fulfillment?

Nothing really. All I do is dream big. No action.

I can say, "Oh, it's because I have not time." But who does? And when I do have time all I feel like doing is sitting at home...comfortable...dreaming.

Am I really the type of person to make a big impact on the world? Am I a female, hispanic version of Donald Trump? Not really.

So I ask myself again, what will it take? What do I need to change? I hate that question.