I'm mad

I don't know if it's just a bad day, week, year or if my attitude is actually changing. I have been getting angry for the littlest things. I am usually a calm person but am I beginning ot lose my peace?

I was mad a the lady at the postage store because she would not ship my return item for free. I AM NOT SUPPOSE TO PAY! I thought what an ignorant biatch....she works here and has no clue! I said I'd go somewhere else and stormed out. I thought "wow, I am really mad!" I could feel my blood rush to my head and my fore head cringe....aaarrrggh.

As I am writing this I understand that it is normal to feel this way from time to time....nothing is wrong with me. I'm not a horrible person. I think I feel guilty for being mad because of Bible guilt. If you are not perfect you are sinning....I'm not perfect and I may be sinning but that's just fine with me....

I am free.

Spirituality
I consider myself a spiriual person. I have had a few supernatural encounters that have proven to me that there is a divine power bigger than what we can imagine. I have seen visions, heard voices, felt an overwhelming spiritual presense more than once....but... You see, I now realize that I was not ready to recieve those encounters. I misuderstood them, tried to repeat them, took them for granted, and turned what should have been insight into confusion. I realize now that in order to reach a state of true spirituality and wisdom you must be a complete person. Enlightenment...self-realization....authenticity...More thoughts to come on that.
One 'believes' that there is bondage and therefore seeks liberation. But the fact is that there is no bondage but only Liberation.~ Ramana Maharshi

unreasonable

AM I asking for too much in a partner?

A gentle, aggressive man
A charming, loyal partner
A smart, humble gentleman
A stylish, modest appeal
A wild, tamed person
An open-minded person who wants many thing out of life. Who see things from a clear perspective and is able to detect even his own lapse in character. Thats a tall order.