Today I realized what an incredible freak I am. I have single handedly managed to freak every guy out who has ever been interested in me. How have I done this? Well, I tend to analyze and OVERthink things to the point of exhaustion (for myself...the guy is usually long gone before I reach that point). I jump to conclusions and move too fast or in a different direction all together. The thing about it is that although it has just been made clear to me that Im a freak, I knew this about myself all along. I can easily justify my actions and rationalize my thoughts....to me it made sense...and I could convince my friends of it too. I am not completely ashamed of my analytical thinking...I like that part about myself...I am not a mean or decietful. I'm just ashamed of the fact that I have most likely missed out on getting to know some really cool people and making good friends. From now on I will chill out, slow down, and enjoy making friends.